A couple of weeks ago I celebrated my twenty-eighth birthday, something that until about a month ago had always seemed so far off. Most birthdays seem to just pass by in a blur of birthday cake, gin and shopping in recent years, but this one felt ~different~, like there was some sort of shift in my life. (NB. Cake, gin and shopping were still very much involved).
I don’t know whether its because my circumstances have completely changed over the past 12 months (all for the better, of course! I’m engaged, planning our dream wedding and Dan has moved to Preston so we live together properly now) but suddenly I feel all grown up and if I’m honest, its a little scary. Everyone seems to assume that by this age you have your shit together and everything is on track and smooth sailing, but trust me, it isn’t the case. I wish someone had told me that hey, it’s okay not to own your own home just yet, or it’s ok not to want to have kids just yet, and just to ignore the pressures that seem to come with getting older. On the surface things may look like my life plan is coming together nicely and everything is perfect but in reality I’ve just been winging my way through!
I may not have everything figured out yet but I’m pretty content right now, probably more so than I have been in a long time, but the fact that I’m nearing the end of my twenties has, for some reason, come as a big surprise to me. All of a sudden I’m nearly 30, not that there’s any problem with that, but its just come a lot quicker than expected. I actually had to do some quick maths the week before my birthday to work out how old I was going to be, no word of a lie.
This was one of the reasons I penned my 30 Things To Do Before 30 blog post, to remind myself make the most of the last years of my twenties, since they’ve flown by in such a blur and I have this sudden urge to do as much as I can before they’re gone!
Since my last birthday, I’ve been making more of an effort to say yes to new opportunities, taking each day as it comes and spending more time looking out for myself and the people I love. I’ve started to take more care of myself with a proper fitness regime and better eating habits, and learnt to switch off when my body tells me to. I’ve made an effort to spend more time with my favourite people, I’ve travelled more, I’ve made much more of an effort with my blog and I’ve tried lots of new things. All in all, 27 was a pretty good year.
For me, 28 has even more excitement ahead. The biggie is definitely getting married, which is creeping up faster than I could have ever imagined and something that makes me even more excited every day. In 10 months I’ll be Mrs Crehan, a wife to the best person I could hope for, and what could be more grown up than that?! 10 years after entering adulthood at 18 and I’m still trying to get my head round the fact that I’m an actual adult. It only seems five minutes since getting up at 9:25am on a Saturday in time for SM:TV live was the most important part of my week.
In between picking out bouquets, finalising table plans and saving money like never before (wedding planning is EXPENSIVE), I want to push myself more in my job and with my blog, continue to take care of my health and wellbeing and be the best person I can be in general. Plus there’s the honeymoon of a lifetime to plan!
My twenty eighth year is going to be a whirlwind of both stress and fun whilst we prep for the biggest point in our lives, but best of all I just know its going to be my favourite year yet. Here’s to 28! Growing up isn’t actually that bad after all…