Something I’ve been hearing a lot about lately, and something that I’ve struggled with for a pretty long time myself, is having self-confidence. Whether that be in work, blogging or just day-to-day life, I’ve always been the kind of person who doubts themselves over a number of things. It can be a huge pain, especially since a big part of my life involves me putting myself out there on the internet for all to see!
People who know me pretty well in life would probably be surprised to learn that I struggle with my self-confidence, as I probably come across to many like I have my sh*t together, I know what I want in life and I’m always pretty upbeat and independent, but that can be far from the truth! What you see on my blog and social media channels may also look fairly polished and like I’m living my absolute best life, but thats just what it is – the best parts of my life.
I’m not saying I don’t have any self-confidence – I do believe that I can achieve anything I put my mind to, and once I set my heart on doing something I’m always determined to see that through. The main causes of my lack of self-confidence come from insecurities about appearance.
Body image and the anxieties that come along with it are something I always beat myself up about as I can honestly say I don’t remember a time when I’ve been completely happy with the way I look. I know, such a contradiction since most of my blog and social media posts are photos of me!
Being a blogger who’s main focus is personal style can often be incredibly difficult when self-esteem is a struggle. I’ll stand in front of the mirror and scrutinise every inch of my body in every outfit, and change my look seven or eight times before I’m happy enough to go out and take the blog photos. Then once I’m back at home reviewing the photos, I’m back to square one, picking every inch of my body apart, and sometimes choosing not to post any of the photos at all because I’m so unhappy with the way I look in them.
For me, I think these insecurities stem from my childhood and never really feeling like I ‘fit in’ with the way I looked back in school. I would always found myself comparing the way I looked to what I thought were the more stereotypically ‘attractive’ and ‘popular’ girls. I used to get picked on every now and then for wearing glasses, being pale skinned and for not having the latest new clothing labels when non-uniform day rolled round, and those kind of things stick with you when you’re growing up!
I think one of the reasons I’ve always been so interested in fashion is because of those comments I used to receive. I’ve always been so intrigued by the clothes people wear, why they choose them and what makes their personal style, and so through my studies and career path, and of course my blog, fashion has always been at the forefront.
My personal style can be quite out there, but I guess that’s kind of the way I express myself and take attention away from the things that I’m insecure about. You’ll often find me in bright colours, bold slogans and busy prints to cover up the parts of my body that I think are an issue, but I bet no one else even notices those things about me!
Learning to be comfortable and confident in your own skin is a pretty tricky process and something that I’m working on through my fitness, diet and knowing what items in my wardrobe make me feel confident. Its something I think I’m definitely learning to improve on over time! This is such a huge discussion point, especially in the blogging world right now, and I’d love to hear your thoughts on the topic, and if you struggle with similar insecurities, how you deal with yours!
PS. A huge thank you to UK Lingerie for the dreamy two piece featured in these photos!