I’m not sure whether it’s the fact that it’s only a matter of months away, but for some reason I’ve started to freak the HELL out about turning 30! I don’t think 30 is ‘old’, nor do I see it as anything other than an exciting new chapter in my life, but for some reason the whole thing has started to feel a bit weird!
I recently read Dolly Alderton’s ‘Everything I Know About Love’ (I know, where have I been?) and the new chapter on turning 30 completely resonated with me. It’s not the fact that a new decade is starting, but more the fact that I’ll be saying goodbye to my twenties.
My twenties have been an absolute blast and have flown by at whirlwind speeds. Until recently though, I had felt a little bit like I hadn’t achieved everything I had hoped I would in my twenties. I mean, just take a look at my 30 things before 30 bucket list to see how slack I’ve been! Imposter syndrome has well and truly taken over, and I’ve started comparing myself to other people my age (or even younger). I’ve felt like so many people have done as much more than me and have so many more exciting stories to tell.
Recently though, a good friend of mine pointed out just how much had happened in my life over the last ten years. I’ve graduated uni with an amazing degree, I’ve moved house (3 times), I’ve got married, I’ve travelled to some amazing places, I’ve managed to work my way up in my career after a lot of set backs along the way, and have met some of the best friends I could wish for. I’ve also been given some incredible opportunities thanks to this little space of mine on the internet. Pretty good, right?
There’s still so much more I would have liked to have done though, but I’ve come to realise that just because my twenties are coming to a close, it doesn’t mean I can’t do those things anymore. I used to hate the fact that I never went travelling when I left uni and saw more of the world or been a little more spontaneous, but I can still do those things post-thirty!
Cord Blazer – Mango // T Shirt – Primark // Jeans – H&M //Boots – Kurt Geiger // Bag – Mulberry
The same friend who pointed out how much I’d done in the last decade, also told me something that has completely stuck with me. She said that your twenties are all about figuring out who you are, who your friends are, and making mistakes along the way. Then, by the time you turn thirty, most people know who they are, and have the best circle of people around them. Your thirties are all about being, as cliche as it may sound, the best version of you, and enjoying every minute of it. This little nugget of wisdom has definitely made me feel SO much better, and actually excited to see what my thirties hold!
So here’s to turning 30! Only a few more months to go, and whilst it still does feel a little terrifying (do I really have to be a grown up?), I’m ready for a new and exciting chapter in my life, and I’ll be celebrating it in serious style. Cheers to that!
Photos by Emma of Owls & Stags